On the Edge

One of the incidious things about depression is that it can sneak up on you when you least expect it.  I have been feeling the stress the past couple of months of many responsibilities and too much on my plate.  But I'm organized enough that I think I can manage it. Yet, I'm in that position where if one little thing is added, everything will crash down.  I think the kids constant fighting may be that one thing.  I was on the verge of tears yesterday from their fighting and I realized that my depression symptoms were trying to squeeze their way in.  We are in the midst of party preparations for our annual Christmas party and I've had a few other events going on this week as well so when the kids start fighting, I can't take it.  I guess it feels like I've emptied myself of everything I have to hold it all together.  That's where the Holy Spirit steps in and reminds me that I am not alone and he strengthens me to pull myself together.  It's a good thing because tonight is our party!  Praise God for his unending grace!